Make up calendar for me, it's very VIP
I've been eyeing make up themed christmas calendars, and talking about them with my friend - mostly about how expensive they are, and what's the point if just you end up getting make up you don't like? Isnt' it smarter to just use the money, and buy stuff that you like, never mind the cute box? But then again, you want to be surprised, that's the draw really.
So, my friend came up with a great idea, where she'll collect me a "calendar" - I gave her a budget, a list of make up what I like and don't like, and let her loose on the shops! I can't wait what she will come up with :D I mean, it will be 100% more likely that I love everything my friend chooses for me, than some ready-made big brand box with same stuff for everyone, never mind your preferences. But it's still a surprise!
I should be careful with my money, since I bought a new winter jacket (yellow!), I need new shoes + I haven't had any luck finding an extra job for the christmas season like last year. But the idea of special calendar just for me was too much fun to resist - and I really need something fun to look forward to, since the end of the year isn't so fun usually.
I was considering NaNo, and I might try a day or two, but I don't like the new site (read: don't know how to use it now, and not interested enough to look into it) so I probably do it through my bujo or something like that. If I can come up some idea to work on...
Amazing, the sun is shining, I think I go for a walk!
So, my friend came up with a great idea, where she'll collect me a "calendar" - I gave her a budget, a list of make up what I like and don't like, and let her loose on the shops! I can't wait what she will come up with :D I mean, it will be 100% more likely that I love everything my friend chooses for me, than some ready-made big brand box with same stuff for everyone, never mind your preferences. But it's still a surprise!
I should be careful with my money, since I bought a new winter jacket (yellow!), I need new shoes + I haven't had any luck finding an extra job for the christmas season like last year. But the idea of special calendar just for me was too much fun to resist - and I really need something fun to look forward to, since the end of the year isn't so fun usually.
I was considering NaNo, and I might try a day or two, but I don't like the new site (read: don't know how to use it now, and not interested enough to look into it) so I probably do it through my bujo or something like that. If I can come up some idea to work on...
Amazing, the sun is shining, I think I go for a walk!
Movie night, with possible tissues
I got the Endgame blu ray! I'm considering if I should watch it or not, as in, will I still cry? First time around in the movie theater, I cried a good amount (but in all fairness, so did my whole row, and the guys behind me, and the group of girls in front of me, so... I wasn't alone!).
And, important point, my cheap 6 euro waterproof mascara held up like a champ!
The second time around, I cried A LOT because I knew what was happening, and I started bawling about 90 seconds before - and my friend who hadn't seen it, kept going 'uh oh, should I get ready, is it Carol?' because she caught up pretty quick that I was reacting preemptively, as it was. And she knew I'm super into Carol :D (and she hadn't seen Captain Marvel, so she didn't know what to expect)
Though this time I didn't have waterproof mascara, so I pretty much walked out the theater with no eye make up left, but what are you going to do, stuff happens. Lipstick held alright though!
So... I don't know how third time is going to go - I rarely cry when I watch stuff at home, but you know, it's known to happen. Maybe I should just watch the gag reel and the bit at the start with Carol? That was a great bit! And put a hydrating sheet mask on just in case, perfect to cry on because it's made of tissue anyway, win-win! :D
And, important point, my cheap 6 euro waterproof mascara held up like a champ!
The second time around, I cried A LOT because I knew what was happening, and I started bawling about 90 seconds before - and my friend who hadn't seen it, kept going 'uh oh, should I get ready, is it Carol?' because she caught up pretty quick that I was reacting preemptively, as it was. And she knew I'm super into Carol :D (and she hadn't seen Captain Marvel, so she didn't know what to expect)
Though this time I didn't have waterproof mascara, so I pretty much walked out the theater with no eye make up left, but what are you going to do, stuff happens. Lipstick held alright though!
So... I don't know how third time is going to go - I rarely cry when I watch stuff at home, but you know, it's known to happen. Maybe I should just watch the gag reel and the bit at the start with Carol? That was a great bit! And put a hydrating sheet mask on just in case, perfect to cry on because it's made of tissue anyway, win-win! :D
Masterchef - blah!
Masterchef Australia is done, and I'm weirdly disappointed with the whole season. I basically lost all interest half-way through, and instead I've been marathoning the old favorite seasons, when the whole 10 season bundle came available here for free.
I don't know what bugged me so much about this season. The one who won, was clearly going to win. Not a problem as such, because the opposite is also true - there's always contestants that are clearly going to get cut first. Maybe what was missing was the solid middle back, that can rise or fall unexpectedly, which is what makes the show worth watching for 60 episodes. If there is a clear winner from the episode one, there is no contest. They could've just shoved the trophy to her, and save time and money.
There was also a whiff of, dare I say...favoritism? The winner was praised all the time by the three judges. That is unusual, because usually there's as much criticism as there is praise - but not this time. She was the best with everything, and even when she clearly failed, it was still perfect and delicious (and one time the dish wasn't even delicious, and she still won an immunity pin. WTF?)
Maybe she has such talent that everything she touches turns to gold, I don't know. But the problem is the same, no matter what the cause: there is no contest. What's exciting? There's no arch where the contests fail and grow and succeed, when you are strong from the start, you get praise all the way through no matter what, and then you win. It's blah!
This season was like mirror image of season 5, that was also a disappointment. That season no one had particular talent at all, they all stayed pretty much the same predictable level, and the winner was the one who failed just a smidgen less than the other. It was also blah! You need the right combination of failure and success! Having just one flavor is boring, it's just as true in cooking as its in tv-competitions.
It could be a problem with editing though, there was some episodes with really weird editing / camera work, so maybe there was something going on.
...And I just read the headlines, that the next season there is going to be new judges! Wonder if that was it, there's something happening in the background.
Still. I'm really disappointed, because I always look forward to a new season. Blah! No more!
I don't know what bugged me so much about this season. The one who won, was clearly going to win. Not a problem as such, because the opposite is also true - there's always contestants that are clearly going to get cut first. Maybe what was missing was the solid middle back, that can rise or fall unexpectedly, which is what makes the show worth watching for 60 episodes. If there is a clear winner from the episode one, there is no contest. They could've just shoved the trophy to her, and save time and money.
There was also a whiff of, dare I say...favoritism? The winner was praised all the time by the three judges. That is unusual, because usually there's as much criticism as there is praise - but not this time. She was the best with everything, and even when she clearly failed, it was still perfect and delicious (and one time the dish wasn't even delicious, and she still won an immunity pin. WTF?)
Maybe she has such talent that everything she touches turns to gold, I don't know. But the problem is the same, no matter what the cause: there is no contest. What's exciting? There's no arch where the contests fail and grow and succeed, when you are strong from the start, you get praise all the way through no matter what, and then you win. It's blah!
This season was like mirror image of season 5, that was also a disappointment. That season no one had particular talent at all, they all stayed pretty much the same predictable level, and the winner was the one who failed just a smidgen less than the other. It was also blah! You need the right combination of failure and success! Having just one flavor is boring, it's just as true in cooking as its in tv-competitions.
It could be a problem with editing though, there was some episodes with really weird editing / camera work, so maybe there was something going on.
...And I just read the headlines, that the next season there is going to be new judges! Wonder if that was it, there's something happening in the background.
Still. I'm really disappointed, because I always look forward to a new season. Blah! No more!
Dark Phoenix, sure
I went to see it, and I kinda liked it. Sorta?
It was very much eye candy - cool effects, cool fights, lots of muscular forearms and high heels stepping over empty shells, that sort of things. Still, it felt sort of...Empty? Flat? I don't know how to describe the feeling.
It was all one note. It started somber, continued somber, and ended somber. (Though the ending for Charles and Erik was cute two minutes and made me laugh :D) I think I liked Erik the best in this movie, he was actually the one with the sense and the character growth (well, beside that stupid ten minute plan of 'let's kill Jean, I'm sure it's fine') And really, he can't ever know about his son, is that it? That's just fucking stupid. Also, Charles, stop drinking! Fuck. Should Patrick Stewart reach through time and smack him again, or what...
They should've thrown Deadpool in there, to get some fun in the movie... I mean, what Captain Marvel did so well, was build on the 90's feel and inject some comedy in between the action/drama! It was a great mix, which made Dark Phoenix just seem so bleak in comparison. Pretty! But bleak.
It was very much eye candy - cool effects, cool fights, lots of muscular forearms and high heels stepping over empty shells, that sort of things. Still, it felt sort of...Empty? Flat? I don't know how to describe the feeling.
It was all one note. It started somber, continued somber, and ended somber. (Though the ending for Charles and Erik was cute two minutes and made me laugh :D) I think I liked Erik the best in this movie, he was actually the one with the sense and the character growth (well, beside that stupid ten minute plan of 'let's kill Jean, I'm sure it's fine') And really, he can't ever know about his son, is that it? That's just fucking stupid. Also, Charles, stop drinking! Fuck. Should Patrick Stewart reach through time and smack him again, or what...
They should've thrown Deadpool in there, to get some fun in the movie... I mean, what Captain Marvel did so well, was build on the 90's feel and inject some comedy in between the action/drama! It was a great mix, which made Dark Phoenix just seem so bleak in comparison. Pretty! But bleak.
Dark Phoenix, right?
I saw the Dark Phoenix trailer before the Endgame, and I was surprised that it's coming soon? Shows how out of the loop I am... And that Jessica Chastain is in it, though no clue what the character is - very nice hair though.
Have to see it, of course, though I have to admit that I have very vague idea what Dark Phoenix stuff is all about - big cosmic force, terrible destruction, that sort of thing?
Nothing new happening in my life, haven't written anything at all - and I just realized that my last fic posted was in summer 2017, so almost two years ago. Wow.
Maybe I need to face the fact that this writing hobby really isn't for me, or something... Though in all fairness, I have felt really depressed since January, like in the level of 'should I brave a doctor visit for some medication' type of feeling.
Something fun to look forward to - the new Masterchef AU season is starting on Monday! That was a surprise as well - maybe my sense of time is botched? Feels like I'm still stuck in the start of the year, but it's almost summer already.
Have to see it, of course, though I have to admit that I have very vague idea what Dark Phoenix stuff is all about - big cosmic force, terrible destruction, that sort of thing?
Nothing new happening in my life, haven't written anything at all - and I just realized that my last fic posted was in summer 2017, so almost two years ago. Wow.
Maybe I need to face the fact that this writing hobby really isn't for me, or something... Though in all fairness, I have felt really depressed since January, like in the level of 'should I brave a doctor visit for some medication' type of feeling.
Something fun to look forward to - the new Masterchef AU season is starting on Monday! That was a surprise as well - maybe my sense of time is botched? Feels like I'm still stuck in the start of the year, but it's almost summer already.
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It's Almost Over!
The sale season is heating up - and soon over, too. We predicted that today and tomorrow will be the busiest days, bit unsure how Saturday and Sunday shape up, but we'll see then. At least all the seasonal items have been packed and crammed on the shelves, so it's just the matter of selling them all - no one wants Christmas flavors after Christmas, that's just how it is.
So, I've been chugging roseroot to stay calm and pleasant in the middle of annoying co-workers and the press of customers (who are mostly very nice though), which leads to wild dreams!
Last night I had a dream that I had a mutant ability, which was to fix small appliances with touch! (like toasters and electric tea kettles) That would be neat, and in the dream I fixed a broken fridge just like that :D Hilarious. Well done sleeping brain, I was very entertained by this dream.
Uh, month is almost over, time has gone so fast. It's almost year 2019, and I haven't started to think how to draw up my Bujo - I want to make some yearly goals, but considering I barely got one yearly goal done this year, I'm probably keeping that list VERY short. >.< I just want the feel of accomplishment, that's all!
I'm already dreading January, I always get some bad news in January, and I can't predict at all in which way that bad news is coming this time.
Well, let's get this Christmas season done, and then stress about what's coming.
So, I've been chugging roseroot to stay calm and pleasant in the middle of annoying co-workers and the press of customers (who are mostly very nice though), which leads to wild dreams!
Last night I had a dream that I had a mutant ability, which was to fix small appliances with touch! (like toasters and electric tea kettles) That would be neat, and in the dream I fixed a broken fridge just like that :D Hilarious. Well done sleeping brain, I was very entertained by this dream.
Uh, month is almost over, time has gone so fast. It's almost year 2019, and I haven't started to think how to draw up my Bujo - I want to make some yearly goals, but considering I barely got one yearly goal done this year, I'm probably keeping that list VERY short. >.< I just want the feel of accomplishment, that's all!
I'm already dreading January, I always get some bad news in January, and I can't predict at all in which way that bad news is coming this time.
Well, let's get this Christmas season done, and then stress about what's coming.
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I'm Too Old For This Shit
Holy fuck that one person at work, she's really pushing my buttons. Mind, I haven't had a single shift with her, and I won't have to until my last day (good thing too), and yet.
She was back for her usual 'it's my day off, but here I am to drink free coffee for two hours' -thing, and so was our other part-timer (I mean, seriously, wtf), and for some reason they wanted to stand around exactly where I was busy working and gossip about something that had happened on Saturday shift, but in some oblique way - point being that I wouldn't understand what they were talking about (while standing right next to me, on purpose. And I mean right next to me, as in bumping my shoulder close). So, I asked what they were talking about, since I wanted them to either realize I was there and heard them, so they could either fuck off or shut up (preferably fuck off so I had room to work).
And this woman says to me: "We won't tell you, you are not part of our secret society".
I should have said: "Good, since this isn't a fucking kindergarten, this is a work place - where I'm actually working, and you are just spending time and slurping free coffee, so fuck right off."
But instead I just laughed and turned back to my work, because whatever. I get paid to work, not fix this mental asylum this shop is.
I never get upset in the moment, it's always the next day when I start getting angry for this type of bullshit, when I have time to think back and look at the situation at the distance.
Maybe first time ever, I'm really looking forward for the mad rush of customers, so I can just focus on them and ignore the co-workers, they are obviously the only source of stress this time around.
She was back for her usual 'it's my day off, but here I am to drink free coffee for two hours' -thing, and so was our other part-timer (I mean, seriously, wtf), and for some reason they wanted to stand around exactly where I was busy working and gossip about something that had happened on Saturday shift, but in some oblique way - point being that I wouldn't understand what they were talking about (while standing right next to me, on purpose. And I mean right next to me, as in bumping my shoulder close). So, I asked what they were talking about, since I wanted them to either realize I was there and heard them, so they could either fuck off or shut up (preferably fuck off so I had room to work).
And this woman says to me: "We won't tell you, you are not part of our secret society".
I should have said: "Good, since this isn't a fucking kindergarten, this is a work place - where I'm actually working, and you are just spending time and slurping free coffee, so fuck right off."
But instead I just laughed and turned back to my work, because whatever. I get paid to work, not fix this mental asylum this shop is.
I never get upset in the moment, it's always the next day when I start getting angry for this type of bullshit, when I have time to think back and look at the situation at the distance.
Maybe first time ever, I'm really looking forward for the mad rush of customers, so I can just focus on them and ignore the co-workers, they are obviously the only source of stress this time around.
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What Is This Job?
The strangeness with the co-worker continues. I haven't shared a shift with her, but I've listened for HOURS her talking at me (not with me, because it might be her day off, but it is NOT mine, and I'm working on the Christmas products that I have to get packed before the end of this month and I'm rushed as is - I'm not stopping to talk with her).
So yesterday I was working in my corner (I have counter space with all the supplies for the packing and I'm pretty much stuck there unless customers come in) and for the second time (!!!) this week she shows up to stand next to me and talk talk talk. I'm barely listening because I'm working, and after awhile I realize that she's badmouthing the other part-timer to me, and I'm like...WTF. I was so stunned that I didn't do anything, but now that I think of it, I should've said firmly that her behavior is way out of line and I'm not going to listen to this at all.
It's not my business whats going on between them (they both have worked there for a long time), and there is no reason to tell me this. And badmouthing someone behind their back, to someone they know and work with? That's a shit thing to do. Talk with your friends who doesn't know/work with this person, and vent there if you want to unpack some petty dispute!
This shop is one big headache, good thing they pay well and there's not long to go before Christmas season is over.
So yesterday I was working in my corner (I have counter space with all the supplies for the packing and I'm pretty much stuck there unless customers come in) and for the second time (!!!) this week she shows up to stand next to me and talk talk talk. I'm barely listening because I'm working, and after awhile I realize that she's badmouthing the other part-timer to me, and I'm like...WTF. I was so stunned that I didn't do anything, but now that I think of it, I should've said firmly that her behavior is way out of line and I'm not going to listen to this at all.
It's not my business whats going on between them (they both have worked there for a long time), and there is no reason to tell me this. And badmouthing someone behind their back, to someone they know and work with? That's a shit thing to do. Talk with your friends who doesn't know/work with this person, and vent there if you want to unpack some petty dispute!
This shop is one big headache, good thing they pay well and there's not long to go before Christmas season is over.
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Shop, Stop!
Two days behind in the new job, bit mixed feelings. Everyone seems nice and friendly, there's plenty of stuff to do (well, I just started doing things and no one objected, so...) but they have their own way of doing things that sometimes I have to wonder what is going on. Mostly because some practices go so against what I've been taught to be right, that I'm just baffled that someone would do that (for example, money in the cash register should always be in certain order and the bills facing right way up - basic sales stuff 101, right? Here they don't seem to care one way or other o.O It was all willy-nilly! Wtf?)
But I don't feel like I can point stuff out (and does it even matter, since I'll be there for what, six weeks? And the group has done things their way for years and years), so I've tried to bite my tongue. Ok, my anxiety flipped from that money thing, so I did kind of point out that money should be handled certain way - don't know if anyone listened though, because some time later I noticed someone had left the cash register half-closed so that money was showing but left the register area. Like... WTF?!? Sure, there was no customers at the moment, but really, if you do nothing else as a sales person, guard the fucking money, holy hell.
Uuh... The older I get, the more I want my own shop where I can do things the way I bloody well like, seriously. Too bad small shops are a dying breed, so not a smart career thing, this.
Anyways. I started NaNo just for the heck of it, and I have managed 1667 both days, yay :D If I get 5K today, I promised myself I can buy some make-up; maybe new lipstick even! Ooh :D
But I don't feel like I can point stuff out (and does it even matter, since I'll be there for what, six weeks? And the group has done things their way for years and years), so I've tried to bite my tongue. Ok, my anxiety flipped from that money thing, so I did kind of point out that money should be handled certain way - don't know if anyone listened though, because some time later I noticed someone had left the cash register half-closed so that money was showing but left the register area. Like... WTF?!? Sure, there was no customers at the moment, but really, if you do nothing else as a sales person, guard the fucking money, holy hell.
Uuh... The older I get, the more I want my own shop where I can do things the way I bloody well like, seriously. Too bad small shops are a dying breed, so not a smart career thing, this.
Anyways. I started NaNo just for the heck of it, and I have managed 1667 both days, yay :D If I get 5K today, I promised myself I can buy some make-up; maybe new lipstick even! Ooh :D
A Good Turn Of Events
Yay, I got an excellent job for the Christmas season!
It's practically full hours, and they don't have a problem if I continue doing the one shift a week for the bra shop as well (and the bra shop owner didn't have a problem that I looked for another job either, so win-win!). It's going to be busy, but I'm so excited! It's only two months, but the pay is good and I really like the shop, so all in all, it's a real stroke of luck! Yay :D
Phew, this is a such a relief, I was worried I wouldn't find anything, and that would've been such a big disappointment because Christmas season is the best time to find sales jobs. Now I can save some money for next year, and maybe get new glasses!
Oh, I'm so happy about this :D
It's practically full hours, and they don't have a problem if I continue doing the one shift a week for the bra shop as well (and the bra shop owner didn't have a problem that I looked for another job either, so win-win!). It's going to be busy, but I'm so excited! It's only two months, but the pay is good and I really like the shop, so all in all, it's a real stroke of luck! Yay :D
Phew, this is a such a relief, I was worried I wouldn't find anything, and that would've been such a big disappointment because Christmas season is the best time to find sales jobs. Now I can save some money for next year, and maybe get new glasses!
Oh, I'm so happy about this :D
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Weird Spending Day
I've been doing very well on weekly budgeting - I finally found a way to mark everything on my bujo that works for me (and doesn't take ages, and doesn't make me feel bad if I forget). So I've been on track, and even going under my weekly goal!
Which of course means it's time for the Weird Spending Day! It always happens, and at first I tried to stop it and felt bad when I failed, because it felt like I had failed to whole budgeting idea. But now I'm trying to think it as necessary flexibility. Bit of out-of-budget spending is fine if I look it at the monthly level, as long as it's one time only, and I don't go overboard with it.
So September W.S.D. today, and I bought Deadpool 2 blu-ray, mango marmalade and a calligraphy pen! Yeah, I don't know either, that's the weird part of the spending day XD
And now to draft next month's bujo pages and watch Deadpool!
Which of course means it's time for the Weird Spending Day! It always happens, and at first I tried to stop it and felt bad when I failed, because it felt like I had failed to whole budgeting idea. But now I'm trying to think it as necessary flexibility. Bit of out-of-budget spending is fine if I look it at the monthly level, as long as it's one time only, and I don't go overboard with it.
So September W.S.D. today, and I bought Deadpool 2 blu-ray, mango marmalade and a calligraphy pen! Yeah, I don't know either, that's the weird part of the spending day XD
And now to draft next month's bujo pages and watch Deadpool!
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Fine Anxiety Completely Wasted
Well, my landlord had no actual business at all, they just wanted to come say hello and see if there was anything to discuss >.< I was tempted to tell them not to call and give such ominous messages as 'there's something I must discuss with you face to face' when they mean 'I want to come by and check the place since I'm in town'. But I was nice and polite as is proper.
Fucking hell, I was so anxious about this whole thing for a week, and it was all for nothing. I don't know if I should laugh or cry.
Also, I've been looking for Christmas season jobs, and I'm especially keeping my fingers crossed for one who are offering full hours for December. That would be great, I'm hoping they would at least ask me for an interview!
So, that has been my week. I need to lie down and listen some calming nature sounds for an hour.
Fucking hell, I was so anxious about this whole thing for a week, and it was all for nothing. I don't know if I should laugh or cry.
Also, I've been looking for Christmas season jobs, and I'm especially keeping my fingers crossed for one who are offering full hours for December. That would be great, I'm hoping they would at least ask me for an interview!
So, that has been my week. I need to lie down and listen some calming nature sounds for an hour.
For Fucks Sake
My landlord called to ask if I was available week from now for her to visit - she wants to "make a request face to face". So that's bloody ominous. >.< It's either: a) the rent is going up, or b) she's telling me to leave.
What else could it be? It's not like we have anything else to talk about (she lives across the country, and I pay my rent like clockwork, so we actually shouldn't have anything to discuss, let alone face to face.)
Fuck my life. I can't afford to pay much more, I'm already living very tightly (no new jobs in the horizon beside the bra shop) and I can afford even less to move! Not to mention autumn is the worst time to start looking for a new place in a Uni town, there's new students looking for flats everywhere! Oh it's going to be a mess, I'm getting anxious to even think about it.
And now I have to wait a week to see what she wants, fuck.
What else could it be? It's not like we have anything else to talk about (she lives across the country, and I pay my rent like clockwork, so we actually shouldn't have anything to discuss, let alone face to face.)
Fuck my life. I can't afford to pay much more, I'm already living very tightly (no new jobs in the horizon beside the bra shop) and I can afford even less to move! Not to mention autumn is the worst time to start looking for a new place in a Uni town, there's new students looking for flats everywhere! Oh it's going to be a mess, I'm getting anxious to even think about it.
And now I have to wait a week to see what she wants, fuck.
The Masterchef Season Is Over
It was the final of Masterchef Australia - the season is over, I'm sad :(
My favorite didn't win, but the final was great all the same - and the winner did amazing job! The final dish was a Heston Blumenthal dessert, so he did make an appearance after all! (the Gordon Ramsay week turned out to be as early as week three or four, and it was pretty different and entertaining :D)
I liked this season, since it was the 10th anniversary of Masterchef, there was a lot of cameos from the former contestants, and nods to some of the iconic moments - Adriano Zumbo was back, with a croquembouche challenge of course!
Sigh. Another year until the new season :( I wish they would make another season of All Stars, or some other type of special show between seasons, but understandably everybody is busy running their restaurants and so worth.
Oh, did I tell you that during the week when we closed the shop, I saw a dream where Matt Preston gave me a hug, and told me hang in there? :D Thank you, subconscious, excellent choice of uplifting dreams! Matt Preston does seem like he would give great hugs, and he always gives excellent speeches as well.
My favorite didn't win, but the final was great all the same - and the winner did amazing job! The final dish was a Heston Blumenthal dessert, so he did make an appearance after all! (the Gordon Ramsay week turned out to be as early as week three or four, and it was pretty different and entertaining :D)
I liked this season, since it was the 10th anniversary of Masterchef, there was a lot of cameos from the former contestants, and nods to some of the iconic moments - Adriano Zumbo was back, with a croquembouche challenge of course!
Sigh. Another year until the new season :( I wish they would make another season of All Stars, or some other type of special show between seasons, but understandably everybody is busy running their restaurants and so worth.
Oh, did I tell you that during the week when we closed the shop, I saw a dream where Matt Preston gave me a hug, and told me hang in there? :D Thank you, subconscious, excellent choice of uplifting dreams! Matt Preston does seem like he would give great hugs, and he always gives excellent speeches as well.
So, that was July
It has been a massive heat wave around these parts since June, and the weather forecast says that it might keep going well into the mid-August (it is the longest heatwave we have had since they started to keep of track of these things). So that's terrible.
But what's not terrible, is that I got a new job! It's just a part-time with very few hours (basically every Saturday + if the owner wants to take days off) but it's something! The store is next to my old store, and the owner just stopped when she saw me walking past, and asked if I was interested to do the weekend shifts for her - I have never been recruited like so, 'I seem alright sales person, come work for me' XD
So now I'm selling...*drum roll* Bras! :D Very different, but it's interesting to work with a completely new category of things. And I like it, now that I'm getting the hang of it!
And maybe if I could catch another part-time job, things would be alright-ish - except I'm afraid that everyone just wants a part-timer for the weekends - there is only so many hours in a one Saturday after all...
Well, hopefully I can find something.
Oh, and Camp Nano was a complete failure, I think I manage something like 1K and that was that :( Bugger.
But what's not terrible, is that I got a new job! It's just a part-time with very few hours (basically every Saturday + if the owner wants to take days off) but it's something! The store is next to my old store, and the owner just stopped when she saw me walking past, and asked if I was interested to do the weekend shifts for her - I have never been recruited like so, 'I seem alright sales person, come work for me' XD
So now I'm selling...*drum roll* Bras! :D Very different, but it's interesting to work with a completely new category of things. And I like it, now that I'm getting the hang of it!
And maybe if I could catch another part-time job, things would be alright-ish - except I'm afraid that everyone just wants a part-timer for the weekends - there is only so many hours in a one Saturday after all...
Well, hopefully I can find something.
Oh, and Camp Nano was a complete failure, I think I manage something like 1K and that was that :( Bugger.
So This Is Pretty Stressfull
Final sales are not easy, goddamn. I knew that, but still it surprised me. (I probably shouldn't mention in CV that now I have done final sale & closed down a shop three separate times? Though it does show that I'm a scrappy survivor? Or possibly cursed. I mean, when I reach the three year mark, the shop goes under. Is it me, or just bad luck?)
Monday was the worst, the line to the cash register ran around the shop, and it stayed the same all day. It was hectic and exhausting, not to mention that there was an incredible mess left behind from people trampling through. Our beautiful store, that I took such care to look after, torn to pieces like its nothing.
So, when we closed the door behind us, I pretty much crumbled on the spot and started to cry - in the middle of the shopping mall. Yay. (Ask me if I had waterproof mascara on, I dare you)
Yesterday was both better and worse - less people because we cleared bulk of our storage on Monday, but more of our regular customers coming in to tell how sorry they are that the store is closing, and how are we holding up? One bit odd but nice regular held my hand and wished me best of luck - and fuck, I almost cried again (good thing I was too shocked by the surprise hand shake to really react). I put up a brave face, and waited all the way home to cry this time. Progress!
So today we just have cleaning up left to do - it is still undecided what will happen to the shop interior (shelves, cash register, dish washer, coolers, that sort of things - and there is tons of little bits and bobs that keep a store running behind the scenes, you would not believe), but it won't be our problem, it's our last day. I can pretty much guarantee that I will also cry today, the exciting bit is at which point? Maybe I'll try the street, just to shake things up a bit.
I'm really getting into this crying business, I might have a go tomorrow too, you know, just for the heck of it - what goes better together than crying and unemployment bureaucracy?
Monday was the worst, the line to the cash register ran around the shop, and it stayed the same all day. It was hectic and exhausting, not to mention that there was an incredible mess left behind from people trampling through. Our beautiful store, that I took such care to look after, torn to pieces like its nothing.
So, when we closed the door behind us, I pretty much crumbled on the spot and started to cry - in the middle of the shopping mall. Yay. (Ask me if I had waterproof mascara on, I dare you)
Yesterday was both better and worse - less people because we cleared bulk of our storage on Monday, but more of our regular customers coming in to tell how sorry they are that the store is closing, and how are we holding up? One bit odd but nice regular held my hand and wished me best of luck - and fuck, I almost cried again (good thing I was too shocked by the surprise hand shake to really react). I put up a brave face, and waited all the way home to cry this time. Progress!
So today we just have cleaning up left to do - it is still undecided what will happen to the shop interior (shelves, cash register, dish washer, coolers, that sort of things - and there is tons of little bits and bobs that keep a store running behind the scenes, you would not believe), but it won't be our problem, it's our last day. I can pretty much guarantee that I will also cry today, the exciting bit is at which point? Maybe I'll try the street, just to shake things up a bit.
I'm really getting into this crying business, I might have a go tomorrow too, you know, just for the heck of it - what goes better together than crying and unemployment bureaucracy?
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It's Almost Midsummer!
Ah, the time of year when Finns start heading out to the summer cabins, and get down some serious drinking! (It's like Christmas, except we drink outside, instead inside). Then next week we get the reports how many people died in the traffic collisions, drownings, drunken foolery and overall random violence - heat wave, national holiday and cheap beer in the woods = not good.
Anyway, to keep with the pessimistic spirit, my job is officially gone (there is small possibility that the chain will open a new store, but honestly at this point, I doubt it). We'll have a final sale on Monday and hopefully we can sell the store empty, then it's just a question of clearing the space (it should be the chain's responsibility, but I'm suspect it will fall on us - though, if we get paid to tear down everything, I'll do it, no problem).
I made a list of different stores where to send a job applications, so I will get on that asap. So, after next week, I have been part of three final sales and closing down stores - that is perhaps something I shouldn't let my future employers know? XD I might be cursed o.O
Anyway, to keep with the pessimistic spirit, my job is officially gone (there is small possibility that the chain will open a new store, but honestly at this point, I doubt it). We'll have a final sale on Monday and hopefully we can sell the store empty, then it's just a question of clearing the space (it should be the chain's responsibility, but I'm suspect it will fall on us - though, if we get paid to tear down everything, I'll do it, no problem).
I made a list of different stores where to send a job applications, so I will get on that asap. So, after next week, I have been part of three final sales and closing down stores - that is perhaps something I shouldn't let my future employers know? XD I might be cursed o.O
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Work Stuff
Finally things started move forward in the work front. Yesterday we started the inventory, and our store is closed for the unforeseeable future as the lawyers start to negotiate about the future with the chain managers. If they reach agreement, we will open again, or if not, we will hold a final sale and clear out the store.
I don't know what our customers might be thinking, since we only told about the store being closed for inventory but if we are closed much further next week I'm sure the rumor mill starts to churn. And I'm anticipating that someone from our regulars might stop me in the street and ask about it, which would be pretty awkward since it's not like I can talk about it. (I don't know what will happen, what's there to talk about?)
It's just such a weird feeling - was yesterday my last day? Or not? I'm both sad and upset, and cautiously hopeful at the same time, which is confusing.
Luckily my best friend is coming for a visit, it's good to have something else to think about, so I don't end up obsessing about this work stuff for the whole weekend. I'm already having trouble sleeping for thinking about this, I don't need to do the same through the days too.
And there's always the soccer world cup going, if nothing else helps :D Three games a day, that's a lot of soccer!
I don't know what our customers might be thinking, since we only told about the store being closed for inventory but if we are closed much further next week I'm sure the rumor mill starts to churn. And I'm anticipating that someone from our regulars might stop me in the street and ask about it, which would be pretty awkward since it's not like I can talk about it. (I don't know what will happen, what's there to talk about?)
It's just such a weird feeling - was yesterday my last day? Or not? I'm both sad and upset, and cautiously hopeful at the same time, which is confusing.
Luckily my best friend is coming for a visit, it's good to have something else to think about, so I don't end up obsessing about this work stuff for the whole weekend. I'm already having trouble sleeping for thinking about this, I don't need to do the same through the days too.
And there's always the soccer world cup going, if nothing else helps :D Three games a day, that's a lot of soccer!
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It's Summer, Officially
I've signed up for Kink Bingo card, my yearly attempt to break through my porn writing block. So far it haven't worked, but I can't stop trying either. C'mon writing brain! Even 500 words of smut would do!
The Unconventional Courtship is also open, but the posting is in August so there isn't a big rush to sign up. It would be a good deadline if I chose a day now, though. Especially since 'Marriage of Rogues' (the UC Charles/Hank fic I wrote during Nano) is halfway rewritten, and if I just picked it up again, I could post it! Ooh...
Nothing new on the job front - things will move forward on the second week, and I hope we will know relatively soon if we are closing or not. And then...Who knows. I know I should prepare, but I'm just trying not to think about it too much.
Anyway. Writing projects! I'm trying to get excited /forced cheer
The Unconventional Courtship is also open, but the posting is in August so there isn't a big rush to sign up. It would be a good deadline if I chose a day now, though. Especially since 'Marriage of Rogues' (the UC Charles/Hank fic I wrote during Nano) is halfway rewritten, and if I just picked it up again, I could post it! Ooh...
Nothing new on the job front - things will move forward on the second week, and I hope we will know relatively soon if we are closing or not. And then...Who knows. I know I should prepare, but I'm just trying not to think about it too much.
Anyway. Writing projects! I'm trying to get excited /forced cheer
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Stressful Wait
Something is finally being decided about the future of our store. I don't know if it will be good new or bad, but after five months of anxious and stressful waiting, I'm ready to just know.
I'll try to trust that it will be fine either way; if the store is closed, I will find a new job, or if the store stays, it will be fine under the new management.
It's just this bloody not knowing that gets me anxious - I function much better when I know the reality of the situation.
Fingers crossed that I still have a job next month.
I'll try to trust that it will be fine either way; if the store is closed, I will find a new job, or if the store stays, it will be fine under the new management.
It's just this bloody not knowing that gets me anxious - I function much better when I know the reality of the situation.
Fingers crossed that I still have a job next month.