Deviant Tales

Oh, this week has gone terribly writing wise. I'm still stuck in the little over 10K - official Camp Nano win right there, so maybe that squashed my motivation? So no chance on the lipstick. One more week to earn it until Camp is over, darn it.

Ok, I have to admit that I have made wrong choices all week - when I had time to write, I chose to do something else that was not really important. Rookie mistake! Writing time is for writing, that's the rule number one during any Nano.

Sigh. We need to rally, writing brain!

I'm 197 words away from 10K and NOW my writing brain decides its done with this whole Nano thing.

Oh, c'mon! I could order bunch of delicious raw chocolate bars, if only there was 197 words more - and if there was whole 4K more by tomorrow, I could get the lipstick! Think of the lipstick, writing brain?!? (writing brain doesn't care, that's the problem)

I got the HBB rough draft send in time, but now I don't like how I changed my original Unconventional Courtship -concept, and I want to change it back - which means rewriting the whole thing. Not a problem in a way that I planned to do that anyway, but I had an ending in mind and now it all has to be rehauled. Ugh. Maybe that's why the writing brain is stumped.

Oh, idea: if I eat some raw chocolate, it will jolt my writing brain to work, because there's no more chocolate until that 10K is done. 197! That's nothing, this darn post is longer than that!
C'mon!

It's April, and that means Camp Nano!

I had a good start, I'm trying to get the Hobbit Big Bang together since that deadline is the closest (though there haven't been any activity at the community since February, so I'm not sure if the Bang is still going forward or not...But I'm writing my story anyway, because why not? It would be great to finish a story this year) I have a rough outline about what needs to happen and when, so I can just write whatever bit I feel like and I can string the story together when I edit.

The cabin seems nice, not terribly chatty but that's fine, we are all busy writing after all!

And now my official Camp Nano -carrot for myself: I can order three (3) bars of expensive raw chocolate when I hit the 10K mark, and if I hit it before the 9th, I can also order one (1) cosmetic item from the same shop (including, but not limited to, a lipstick).

Now, let's write! :D

Few days left, and my NaNo project is a tangled mess.

The first week went perfectly with the official NaNo style - one story, the 1667 a day, steady as can be.

Then second week my own story stalled so I shifted to fic writing, but still - one story, the 1667(ish) a day, no problem.

Third week I hit the wall with the fic too, so I tried to get the words by writing short things in my notebook (all that I now have to type in document to add to the official word count).

Fourth week, this week, I had a lot of work hours. (There was a Black Friday sale in the shopping center. Why are we having a Black Friday, when it doesn't mean anything around these parts you ask (and customers also asked)? Beats me. Sounds snappy in the marketing materials?) So writing got sidelined, but I got some bits and pieces done here and there. My notebook is one big mess, let me tell you.

So now I'm trying to get a picture how behind I really am, how big last minute manic rush I need on Wednesday and do I get the NaNo banner or not?
It's a rebel-rebel win (again), but I still want it!

It's day five of NaNo, and I'm keeping up with the par - it creates these pretty, even columns in the graphic.

I did come up with names (and genders) for my three main characters, but the buggers are shifting around the story. Who is the protagonist? What does she want? That would be really helpful to know by now. Ugh.

So I'm bogged down by my own indecision, which is just part of the NaNo experience!

It's a good start though, here's hoping it will last all the way to the end...

A week left until NaNo!

I have a vague concept of the story, three characters without names (names are the worst, I can never choose), and I found a few prompt generators that might help when the inevitable block hits.
Also there's a local kick-off meeting planned for Monday! So, ready-set-go?

Just one problem. I haven't really written anything since August. Uh oh?

Which means hitting the word count on the 1st of November will be a serious struggle, I know it.
Alright, it's always a struggle, that's what I have learned from the three previous rounds of NaNo crazyness. The possible easy writing days won't come until the middle, and to get there is always a battle. But when you hit that stride, it's pretty amazing.

Well, I have time now! A few ten minute writing sprees to warm up to the thought that I need dozens of those in a day for thirty days straight...

Darn it, what's wrong with my creative brain? The daily word count thing has been absolute battle, and I've more fail days than success days - and the word count needed isn't even high! It's ridiculously low, in fact! I don't know, it just feels so darn impossible.

I've been trying to collect ideas from different prompt generators and such, just in case I'll find the writing groove for NaNo. At this pace, there's no point to even try, because it will be an instant fail. :(

Maybe the problem is that I haven't found an idea or a concept that would really get me excited, it all just feels sort of...murky. Blah.

Six weeks until NaNo, there's still time to find the lost groove.

Sigh. This was rather terrible Camp Nano - I didn't manage a single kink bingo square, when my original plan was to get the line bingo. And I didn't come up with a different project, so I basically shifted the goal to editing the 'Hank/Alex Unconventional Courtship' -fic from the last Camp - and even that didn't really work, because that fic is still unfinished. :(

So. I got the Nano win, but honestly, the 10K was just a big pile of word fudging so it doesn't feel like a win.

It's almost August! And around here, that means that schools are about to start, which in turn means there's a lot of notebooks, pens and stuff on display in the stores. And that means that I'm locked in a battle with my inner child who wants ALL THE PENS and ALL THE NOTEBOOKS (like, one with Captain America and one with Iron Man and one with...)

I have enough empty notebooks that I could write longhand for every single day for a year and I still wouldn't run out of paper, and enough pens to go with that. So, pretty sure I don't need more. Except there are pens that have ink that smells like candy!?! :D (no, I didn't buy them, the grown-up part over ruled the excited child part, but I really wanted them)

But honestly, would one more pen be that bad?

Camp Nano didn't start so well, I'm already behind the day goal and it's not even a high one in the first place. :(

Mostly the problem is that I can't decide what to write, so I've been sampling different stories. Nothing has peaked my interest so far, but hopefully the inspiration strikes soon.

Also the weather has been disgustingly hot and I had a lot of work last week (and some challenging customers, who were really mean to me and said some nasty shit that I had to listen politely), so I've been tired and sad. Not the best writing mood, as it was.

Well, it's only start of the Camp, hopefully there's good writing days ahead.

Alright, I think I got my plan for Camp Nano - or at least a good attempt of a plan?

So, I took a good look of the bingo card and chose a line that felt most inspiring. Then I took my little pink notebook of kink meme prompts (for some reason I have like hundreds of prompts noted down from different memes. It's a strange prompt squirreling behaviour that I like to do :D Helps when I'm lacking ideas, which is always) and combined squares with prompts.

Two upsides with this plan: 1) now I have all five squares set with characters and basic comcept, and I can easily write any of them in any order, and still keep track what to do next (important feature in Nano) and 2) since they are kink meme prompts, and I can post them in the memes and neatly sidestep the whole 'posting on AO3' -anxiety and maybe dial the smut up as well.

Downside is that during Nano I tend to throw the plan out the window, so... I might have just wasted an afternoon on this XD
Well, still a week more until the Camping starts, I have time to plan some more.