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I finished Camp in 10K - which is a win in sense that I dropped the goal to that at the last minute, but a loss in a sense that I started with the aim of 25K. I also had a goal of no zero days, and I didn't get that either, this week has been nothing but zero days :(

But 10K still, that's good! Positive thoughts! (... it has been very hard to have those lately)

I've been drawing up the May Bujo pages, and I'm trying to think some goals to have. Stuff at work hasn't changed much, still a lot of questions up in the air. It's really stressful not to know what is going to happen, so I've been really cautious with goals, because I don't know what the situation will be in a month or two or three.

A lot of stuff is out of my control, so I try not to worry about them too much - and focus more on those things that I can control. I have brushed up my resumé, and written up a few versions of work applications. There isn't any jobs open at the moment, but there might be in a month or two or three. (Hopefully.)

I'm going to try to think positive thoughts. And now, to toast the end of Camp Nano - ice cold bottle of aloe vera water! Yum :) Delicious!
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Camp NaNo is going bit too slowly - I've managed to write every day, but the word counts has been less than 500 words. So, I lowered the end goal :( Bit of a disappointment, but 15K is good too, right? And Camp Nano is more relaxed with goals than NaNo, the point is to do what you like anyway.

It would be so good to get even one story in some sort shape - like with beginning, middle and end. That's not much to ask, is it? Feels like it is, though.

Sigh. Well, I have a day off, goal is to write a good chunk of words today. Better go do that!
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I think I mentioned in January that I was going to do the whole 'weekly budget - only buy stuff in cash' thing I've tried last year as well, but I didn't manage it then. Now I have done that, but also marked 'no spend' days in my bujo, and that has worked really well. Because last time my downfall was the small, innocuous buys that I did without stopping to think - but with the chance of getting a 'no spend' day mark, I find it easier to just ignore the whimsy buys.

And I feel like I plan better, I find it easier to think ahead in a smaller scale - like, how much food will I need if I have two 'no spend' days next. I've tried to plan for a week, but that's too complicated for me, and it haven't worked. Two days seem to be the optimal size. I've still tossed some food in trash, but not as much as before - not throwing away any food is the end goal, and I think I'm getting there.

Camp is not going well, I keep waffling about the historical setting - to do it, not to do it, I keep changing it around - the story just doesn't want to settle. Sigh. It the second week block, I just have to keep pushing through!
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First week of Camp Nano has gone by, and I had no zero days! :D

Which is a great achievement, considering that I barely have an idea what to write, and I've started over with a different story three or four times already. Yesterday I settled on a story that still feels interesting today - I'm hoping that it would hold for this week at least.

My cabin is nice, though very slow - there is barely any conversation. Big difference to last year, when the cabin kept going all the time (though they were all old friends, so it was also a bit uncomfortable - especially when they discussed their personal life in great detail.)

I finally got Chuck Wendig's book 'Damn Fine Story' and I like it, I've been reading it every time I feel like there's no fucking point of writing anything because I can't finish and post. It's no big deal! I'm writing now, everything else is just noise and problem for another day. Focus on the writing!

Back to Camping!
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April sneaked on me, and it's Camp NaNo time!

I pretty much signed up on the 31th, with zero planning - so I started to write yet another Unconventional Courtship -story. I'm just really stuck to the "Hank/Alex + Harlequin romance + A/B/O" -combo, but that's alright. As long as writing is fun!

The only thing is that when I hit a wall with one story, I just start another - which means I have like, ten stories started (since November) and nothing finished. I wrote down as a year goal that I want to post something, but at this pace, that goal is looking pretty impossible to achieve.

The situation at work has stayed the same - we are working like everything is fine, when in reality it's not fine. And since looking for a new job is so difficult, I've just ignored the problem. Which is dumb, and I know it, but I still can't make myself to just face the situation head on, and work to solve it.

Well. Maybe I should write some more goals in my bujo, smaller the better, so taking the steps forward become easier (maybe).
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I got a gift card as a birthday present for a craft shop - and I spent the card on Bujo stuff, such as glitter tape and stickers. I also got a new journal, with the actual dots, which is so much easier than a blank page one I had before - just count the dots and draw the lines, no need to measure!

So I've had great fun designing the April in my new journal. It's the perfect relaxing Sunday activity - a cup of tea, Ms. Marple on the telly, pile of washi tape, and go! I got gold-tinted washi's, so April is looking very festive at the moment :D

I've noticed that I really enjoy drawing up the month, but I pretty much forget to write anything in the book during the week. So there's just long empty stretches dotted by stickers here and there. Probably not the optimal way to use a bujo, but small steps. I've only done it for five months!

April is Camp Nano, so I need to make a plan for it - and set some sort of goal. Camp's are so free form that I have trouble making them work for me - I just give up when I hit the wall, instead pushing through. Well, there's still time.

Hurrah!

Nov. 30th, 2017 07:58 pm
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I won! Purple bar! Cheering!

The final total is 50 026 words! (so I didn't win by much, but hey, it's over the line and that's enough :D)

In total I started 9 different stories. The longest one was a bit over 10K, the shortest 1K - none of them are really finished, but some are in a better shape than others. All are fics, and all started with the Unconventional Courtship -method.

Victory today, but what happens tomorrow?

I was thinking that for December, I should try giving daily time goals instead word counts - like 20 minutes worth of work, which can be anything; editing, writing, just drawing random mindmaps, whatever. Still a goal to aim at, but different enough for NaNo? I mean, it would be pretty amazing to post something at some time in near future :D (high hopes, I know)

But now it's time to celebrate!
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November is almost over, how did that happen? NaNo just started, and now it's done - or nearly done: I still need 3 754 words for the win.

I can do it! I've been pulling 2K days lately, so I'm confident I can do it. (and if I keep repeating that to myself, that will help).

I bought a Christmas calendar for myself (first time in ten years, I think :D), one with fancy chocolate inside. So on Friday, I have something fun waiting for me, in case I get bit of a NaNo crash.

1 877 words today, to get over the line tomorrow - so better get to it! I can do it!
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I hit the 40K - yay! But I'm behind the schedule - boo!

Not terribly behind, I can still make it with 1 997 daily words but it will need work. Luckily I have a day off on the 30th, so I can write as much as it takes to cross the finish line. Toward the NaNo win!

So far I have about 10 stories started, and none finished. I don't really know what to do with these stories after NaNo ends, I think two (at least) are promising, in that if I structured them bit better, and rewrote it, they might turn up alright - with actual start, middle and end, ooh!

And I haven't planned what to do during December - I have my bullet journal ready, but I don't know what goals to set? Some goals would be good, I won't remember write anything without some kind of goal, not in December when its busy at work.

Uh, let's not think about that then - 9 982 words to go, let's focus on that!
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So close to 30K that I can almost touch it! Fight, fight, fight! :D

Another 'just' 1K day this week, mostly because I had a morning shift, and mornings are my prime writing time - I can't get the same amount done in the evenings, it's just the way it is.

All my six different stories are in a terrible mess, so I started number 7 - though now I'm feeling the pull to go back to story2 instead, it was very close of final action and end. I think it would be great to get that ending next week, as to start winding down from NaNo.

Because 1st of November is one thing, 1st of December is completely another.

Though I want to try coming up some kind of schedule for editing/writing, because it would be a shame to lose this momentum I've gotten from NaNo.

Still, 20K more to go! Can we do it, yes we can! :D
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Yay, I got to the 20K!
It's spread over 6 stories, but that's fine - I feel good with those six at the moment, so perhaps I can hit the midway point without starting another story.

20K is more than I have written during the whole year - and I did it in 12 days (and I'm not done yet!).

I've been saying to myself for a long time that 'I can't write, I'm blocked'. Well, that's obviously bullshit - I can write, since I just did it? So the truth is more like: 'I don't want to write, and writer's block is a convenient excuse for it'

The core question: so why don't I want to write?
I suppose if I can figure out the answer to that, I could feel better writing even outside NaNo (gasp!)

Next stop: 25K Midway Point!
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NaNo has been going surprisingly well - only one day when I barely scraped together 1K ( but no zero days at all, yay!) And today I hit 15K so I'm right on track!

I have been rebelling though, I have five stories started and I'm thinking of starting the sixth one if the number 5 gets stuck tomorrow. Bit strange approach, I admit, but I really like starting stories, not so much writing the ends for them. And Week 2 of NaNo is always the hardest, so I'm not going to tackle anything difficult, just focusing on getting the daily word count. If it takes ten beginnings, then so be it!

Also, I realized that I get the writing done the quickest, if I don't open internet at all until I'm at least in 700+ words. Then its fine if my attention drifts a bit, because getting the rest of the words doesn't feel such a big effort.

Toward the third week! Go go NaNo! :D

Ready?

Oct. 31st, 2017 03:24 pm
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I updated my bullet journal for NaNo, and I also went and bought like 10€ worth of stickers for it. Well...I need 30 golden stars since I'm certainly going to hit 1667 every single day, right? (it's good to have goals in NaNo) I also have silver stars for 'good try, not enough words' type of days.

Harder to explain why I need the Iron Man stickers for...Hm. When the week is done it's Party Time by Tony S.? :D Or something?

I've been watching Thor / Avengers / Thor 2 in preparation for Ragnarök, though I have a long shift on Friday so I don't know if I can make it to the premiere. Hopefully on Sunday?

Well, I'm as ready as I can be for NaNo, let the writing begin! (tomorrow)
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NaNo is coming! I'm freaking out!

I've had a few really bad days at work - I don't know what the hell is going on, but I've been dropping everything, stuff goes wrong left and right and all the annoying regulars seem to pop up everyday (why won't the nice regulars come by as often?) Uh, stress... And its not even the Christmas season yet. >.<

And I don't have a proper plan for NaNo. I have two half-plans? One for fic, and for original work but neither will be enough for the whole 50K.

Good thing that I have a light week ahead, so I have time to try come up with some kind of plan.

Uh, this has been one long week.
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I've been writing! A complete mess of a story, but I'm not bothering with anything else but hitting the wordcount every single day. It's actually fun to jump around to from scene to scene, whatever pops my head. And having the bullet journal has helped too, I write my weekly writing plan and then keep ticking it off as I go.

I've been reading the NaNo forums, and everyone seems to have their ducks in the row already (or those who have no idea what they'll do, don't go around telling that :D). I don't know what to write - I was considering maybe doing 5 x 10K stories, because then I could change the story and jump around as much as I like. The problem with that approach is that it actually requires 5x the planning (and strictly speaking isn't even a NaNo).

I would like to write something of my own, but I have no characters or ideas for that, and I don't think I can come up with a working plan in two weeks. So fics it is! Most likely Unconventional Courtship based, because it helps to have a very concise starting point.

Sigh. NaNo is a stressful hobby!
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My friend has been talking about bullet journaling, so I looked it up. I don't need such system for everyday things (I don't have much to remember, either I'm working or not) but I thought I would try it for writing related things. I have a notebook for all sorts of random writing stuff, and the bujo -system could actually work for that.

I didn't buy the fancy book, I just started on a plain notebook with a pencil but I think it has been pretty good experience so far. I've been doing the "+50 words / day" pace as a warm up to NaNo (because going from zero to Nano won't work), so I've written down the daily goals, stuff I need to figure out before NaNo, ideas collections, that sort of stuff.

The danger is that I get too caught up with planning the writing instead writing, but that's always the danger.

So, 250 words for today, I better go get them!

Camp: Fail

Jul. 31st, 2017 11:14 am
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Well, the Camp was a big fat fail this time around. I didn't get anywhere with the HBB (and honestly, I'm really sick of that story), I didn't come up an idea for UC (so I haven't even signed up, because what's the point) and frankly I didn't write much of anything.

This is so annoying and frustrating, and I don't know what to do to get even some writing done. Even little bit? One tiny story, or something? It's depressing.

In related news, I have one long week of work, and then some more vacation time!
Upside: getting far away from customers (so tired with weird whining. I don't lose my cool against anything customers come up with, but apparently even I have a limit, and its coming up).
Downside: two weeks off halfs my paycheck and destroys my monthly budget for September. I've saved money so it's not going to be a massive problem, it's just that there isn't really any margin for error and that stresses me out.

I wish I had a dog to hug, I would feel better.
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Camp NaNo is going a bit slow, but in its way just fine - I'm at 5K from the 10K goal, its just that I don't have time to write every day. Especially since it's the annual festival weekend and the town is packed with people (and hopefully customers). So busy time at work. Also I'm stuck with the HBB fic, and I don't know how to end the damn thing.

I've been trying to come up with ideas for the Unconventional Courtship, but I haven't found any summaries to spark my interest. Maybe I could work on the ideas from last summer, to get through the camp.

I just need to get 5K and it's a wrap on Camp for the summer! Not too bad, I'm sure I can do it.
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Yay, remix done and the recipient enjoyed it, so it's all good! I pushed the editing right to the deadline with a mad dash - long days at work and warm weather are not good combination for my writing brain. But I think the story turned out alright, so mission accomplished!

I joined the Camp Nano cabin, but it's not a fun cabin for me - most of the people are old-school NaNo people, who have known each other for ages, so they have lots of inside jokes and they like to talk about RL stuff. Which is fine, it's a chat, they can talk whatever they like - it just makes me uncomfortable because it feels like I'm eavesdropping on private conversations between friends.

Anyway. I put the HBB fic as my goal to finish during Camp, so I'm going to go read it through what I have so far and then keep going with that. I need to get that finished and off my mind, it has been dragging on too long. If I get it finished soon-ish, I could start planning the Unconventional Courtship?

Yep, that's the plan for the Camp!
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NaNo Camp is done, and I finished in the grand number of 11 112! (Complete accident, not by design - though ending in eleven would've been fun :D)

But the panicked writing still continues, because I promised the person who claimed my story in the Bang that I would mail the finished thing to them this week. And it's not finished you see, because I'm trying to rapidly rewrite it. Oops?

So, not the greatest use of time I've ever had, for example I had 9 (!) zero days during NaNo, and with even 500 words a day I could have had 4.5K done. But no! Can't have that, need to leave everything to last possible minute...

Better not waste anymore time then! Typing, quick smart!

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