Oh, this is desperate
Jun. 1st, 2016 07:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
a_qMy Unconditional Courtship date is this Sunday, and my story is far from finished. It's not even close. It's spread across six or seven documents, I have changed some fundamental bits that render big chunks of already written stuff useless, there's stuff missing and I have no clue how to get different parts of the story to click together. I don't know how I managed to edit this story into a worse shape than what it was as a raw text. :(
But I have a plan B: I'll whip up a completely new +1K story on Saturday, polish it up and post it on Sunday. UC isn't an exchange, so I'm really just disappointing myself. Well, it could be a brilliant 1K story (and therefore not disappointing)? Or I might get a sudden lightbulb moment and figure out how to make the first story to work, maybe in a smaller scale? There might be a good 5K section there that could function well on its own.
Also, the thought of posting something makes me kind of nauseated from fear and anxiety. Uh.
And this is a low-stress challenge, nothing to get upset about! >.< I'm just ridiculous, I don't know why I'm reacting this way.
Fingers crossed for Sunday.
But I have a plan B: I'll whip up a completely new +1K story on Saturday, polish it up and post it on Sunday. UC isn't an exchange, so I'm really just disappointing myself. Well, it could be a brilliant 1K story (and therefore not disappointing)? Or I might get a sudden lightbulb moment and figure out how to make the first story to work, maybe in a smaller scale? There might be a good 5K section there that could function well on its own.
Also, the thought of posting something makes me kind of nauseated from fear and anxiety. Uh.
And this is a low-stress challenge, nothing to get upset about! >.< I'm just ridiculous, I don't know why I'm reacting this way.
Fingers crossed for Sunday.